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title: Library time and... guess who?
date: Friday, June 27, 2008
time:2:31:00 PM
So I redeemed my reading crap from the library yesterday, and I unfortunatly redeemed my prizes from some absent minded person. It was a black guy that looked like he was sneering at me the whole time and talked like a woman. S/he had a light voice (I'll call him Sally) and talked real slow. I can guess Sally probably hasnt done this before because he was all unsure about what to do and he forgot to give me a printing coupon so I went back to him a reminded him.
I don't want to see Sally ever again. People like Sally delay my time.

But on the bright side, I got this red/orange bag (I can't tell waht color it is, its red without extreme light, but then if you put it in light it looks bright orange) a cool 64 mb flash disk, a coupon for a free wendy's cheeseburger and a printing coupon that the librarian almost forgot.

I borrowed eleven books (I think, or was it nine?) and happily frolicked home.

But 20 seconds ago woah..
I just finished writing my blog and my dad disturbed me by telling my crappy Chinese jokes.
Do you hate it when your parents are so cheesy?
I just laughed along with him sarcastically.
Then my dad talked about Swimming and one topic made him jump to another, especially about my diving. And because when I dive, I usually get readly later than the others. When the person in front of me begins to dive, then I put my goggles on and step on the block. But I guess my dad had a problem with that too so he started screaming at me that Im always slower than eveyone else. And when I dive, I try to push myself off the block, you know like push forward but I really dont know how so my dad thinks Im not even trying. Then he said that I probably don't care about any of my sports and I don't want to try harder to get better. Now really? WTF mate! I mean, Im so pissed off! I was just pretty happy 20 minutes ago but thanks to him, my mood is now ruined. Every topic makes him go off on another, I should video tape him one day and let you judge him yourself. He gets mad himself screaming at me. Best I don't say anything or else he'll say "I dont like your attitude" and go off about his disrepctful I am to parents now. But if I dont say a word, he'll get pissed off and tell me to listen.
The way he talks, its hard not to hear him, even though I don't want to. I could post the order he does these things but I better not now. If you ever meet my dad, try not to stand near him when he talks to you. Gosh he made all this snot come out of my nose.

I remember how it started actually. He read about this girl in the newspaper and how he thought I could be like her and when I said I didnt care, he said something like "Well you should" and turned around to leave. But then he turned right back and said more and turned around to leave. And he turned around again and started his blabber hour and just couldnt stop. I want to kick him right in his area to show him what I think of him. Seriously. The older my dad gets, the more confused and ingorant he gets. Well Im putting this newspaper elsewhere so he wont be reminded. The only thing I can say now is "what a dumbass". I hate when these tiny things lead to huge deals. I was sooo annoyed. I hope to never talk to him again. There's no point. He won't listen to me, he'll just talk and talk and talk and talk about me and how I do everything wrong.
Whatever. Its nice to get things out like that.I seriously want to kick him hard and throw his nasty little cigarettes away.


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title: Hah up to 25 hours
date: Friday, June 20, 2008
time:11:12:00 PM
Ok I got the final prize, the 25 hour flash drive prize! Yayy! I havent printed it out yet, I will in a moment. Im at a sleepover at mah cousins.
she's got a cute rabbit Mocha ;).But this laptop/computer (its really thick for a laptop) is laggy and slowish so yeah... But Im still reading!
Any hoo, I'm still kinda bored. Have you got anything to share about your day?


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title: God or science?
date: Wednesday, June 18, 2008
time:10:36:00 PM
I had a sleepover yesterday with a friend who truly believed in God, and Jesus as his/her savior. I admire her for her strong beliefs, but when she tried to convince me that Jesus too, was my savior, I had no Idea what to say. So this is the beginning of my rant today.

For the past years, Me and my brother have no strong beliefs. We both agree on being atheists, but way back deep in my heart, I don't know, would God damn me to hell? (Ha I hope not)
I always wanted to know if I could ever go to Heaven and not believe in God, or not accept Jesus as my savior.

My parents, on having us, we weren't so big on God anyways, so I guess we were never "exposed"

And answer from most people who go to church is "of course not!", and the answer from other atheists is "Only God brings Heaven and Hell. If you truly don't believe in God, Heaven and Hell do not exist."
Right?

A lot of families get their children into God early, sending them to Sunday school and listening to the preacher preach in Church. So since that's the only life the children have lived, that's what they will believe for the rest of their lives. Right?

But I have noticed many facts, many little things that God and the exilers have missed.
First of all- Science contradicts some of the things in the Bible, main one being evolution. For my to truly believe in God or not to truly believe in God, I want the answer to my question- Is evolution real? Its a theory, but supported by many facts. So of course, I asked this guy who volunteered at a church if he knew, but the only answer he gave was that he believed in both. But before I asked him, I asked a woman, to see her opinion. She told me that believing in Evolution was like believing in the Devil. No, scratch that- Believing in Evolution is believing in the Devil. And so far, to this day, I have not yet found an answer to my question.

Second, How did all the other religions form? Did Christianity originally begin, and a bunch of traitors suddenly started to believe in Islam? Or buddah? (Buddha?) If so, these religions have been alive for thousands of years, so why hasn't God done something? Maybe he should have killed these "traitors", or meddled with their conscious to switch back to Christianity?
So all religions believe if you don't believe in that religion, you're messed up and going to hell. Unless you believe in something peaceful, like Confucius, or Taoism.

And third - wheres all this proof of God?
I mean, billions of people throughout the world believe in him but wheres the actual proof that he was there? Can you actually believe others experiences? I mean on TV, I remember this girl who had some sort of accident, and when her mom sang bible songs to her, she dreamed the Jesus picked her up and cured her. But how do we know that she dreamed it? Had God done anything in the world that thousands of non believers or kinda in between people like me have seen?
Not yet.
But if you ask someone who believes in God, yes yes and yes again. Is there a real answer out in the world?

Fourth reason, check the news! All these wars were about religion too! Suni and Shiites, Jews, Muslims, whats wrong with the world? Isn't God the blame? If he's not than what is? I mean, you can't possibly blame the people, they believe in God. Put yourself in their shoes. Believing in Allah or Buddha is correct in every way God is correct to Christians! So they fight for what the believe in. But is it really worth it? Is God worth it for thousands to die, kill and be killed?

But the real thing is, believe in God or not were all the same people. Yeah, I know, people who believe in God might be looked upon as more innocent, have a more clean image (maybe) and respectful etc.etc. but In my opinion, I truly truly truly believe they are the same. I mean, people who believe in God still say "Oh My God!" and commit the same "sins" as people who don't believe in God.

Back in school, one of the girls I less favored who's parents have believed in God and grandparents and from generations before her cheated from a test. We were having a vocabulary test and she pretended to rummage in her book bag for a pencil and she stole a bunch of looks at her flash cards. She rummage for quite a long time, and I swear I could hear the sound of her shuffling through her cards. Plus she took her card case out and set it on the floor.

I've also heard things like "God won't come to you, You can only come to God"
But that's probably bad for me because I'm the type of person that likes to try it out before I actually decide (Yeah I know I have to decide to try first but that's not the point) And if God doesn't come to me and show me his true powers, what will happen?

I'm sure plenty of famous people also don't worry about God too much, do they go to hell as well?
And how bad is Hell?
A place of fire to burn people for eternity? Bloody wars and eternal battles or sinful people?
And why cant a perfectly good girl who doesn't believe in God go to heaven? Isn't that what God wants? Perfectly good children/adults/humans living in his world??

And a good friend of mine even stole from a store!
Not like anything of value of course but that just proves that God believers aren't as innocent as you think! And if you disagree, I want to hear your thoughts. Can you answer my questions?

So in the end, there's only two things.
God and his science.

And it would be VERY much appreciated if people who do believe in God stop forcing people who don't believe in God to believe in him. Think of it to be that everyone is free to believe who they want to.

But also you can think of it as this- Its not possible to not believe in God and go to heaven because Heaven is Gods "thing" . If you don't believe in God, you don't believe in heaven. There is no heaven.



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title: The 15 hours reward
date: Monday, June 16, 2008
time:4:06:00 PM
Hah! I got the 15 hour reward. Heh.
So, about the game yesterday, we go knocked out of the tournament. And my finger got knocked out of color by the ball. I've got so much to rave on about, I warn you, I probably wont make sense.

The coach wont let me play infield, because he thinks I'm not suitable so I played centerfield the WHOLE frikin game. SO thats how the ball killed my pointer finger as I went to retrieve the ball that had just been hit. So its all puffy, purple and slightly green. We've still got practice, and the coach expects us all to come.

Its bugging me because he (the coach) thinks that he can boss me and my family around and tell me what position I can be, I can play 1st base, 2nd, and third! and maybe shortstop. (Havent tried that position). My dad has asked, I'll try to ask today, IDK, why wont he listen to me?!?

My finger hurts so bad, I can't do anything.
Cant play flute
nor Piano
nor swim
and I havent tried throwing a ball, but im guesing that it would hurt (with sarcasm)


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title: Winning streak!
date: Sunday, June 15, 2008
time:11:52:00 AM
So the allstars thing was a success. Well, not the tournament -yet. Today at 3, its gunna happen. Both of the games were soo good. I really needed to hit a homerun on the ball :(. Or maybe hit the ball. Our team is tight, we're all pretty good friends. SO maybe thats why we play pretty well. And our upstairs aur conditioning is now fixed, woo pee! Our teams #1 seated. I must go now.


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title: Joined summer reading club- Sign up incentive
date: Friday, June 13, 2008
time:1:59:00 PM
Ok, do I joined the summer reading club at my library. Borrreed :.
(Linda youre so funny!) How about $4 ?!
I have to read 25 hours this summer... urgh.. And they gave me a Sign-up incentive... We get a free cheeseburger (explains the fat kids in america) and a fine wavier up to $5.

I borrowed a whole bunch of books yesterday, and they finally renovated the library, theres a self checkout now. Here's my favorite part - when the receipt comes out :) :) :). Then it goes fachink and cuts and you pull it out. Its really neat! Hehe, yeah, thats about how I spent yesterday. I guess I getter go, my air conditioning upstairs stinks (broke). Its sooo hot. :(


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title: A weird quote
date: Saturday, June 7, 2008
time:10:09:00 PM
Sex is like math,
add the bed,
Subtract the clothes,
divide the clothes,
and pray to God that you dont multiply

weeirrd?


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title: New Layout!
date: Thursday, June 5, 2008
time:10:44:00 PM
EDIT:
My softball coach did not get fired.


hah, new layout again, and this time it was withing 2 weeks. Muah. Yeah yeah, school still hasnt ended, but I dont think we'll need to bring anything tomorrow. We're gettign our yearbooks tomorrow! 8th grade got theirs already, so I got a sneak peek.
Its pretty interesting, but there are a bunch of flaws in it too, like some guy got thier picture in twice, I look like an butt (seriously) and alot of my friends look strange. Every year, theres something wrong with my picture!! ARghh! and I pay $18.28 for it :(.
Yeah, I think I spent enough time changing the layout, blog more tomorrow. I'm really sleepy now.
I'm glad that there isnt any homework though and our lockers are done. I shall never have a bottom locker again. (I hope not) Can't wait to take pictures of my friends!

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title: Confusion
date:
time:12:41:00 AM
I found out what our team name means!
Renegades:
n.
One who rejects a religion, cause, allegiance, or group for another; a deserter.
An outlaw; a rebel.

Hmm, thats my softball teams name. So does that mean we're outlaws?

Anyway, there's been lots of drama going on with my coach this past 2 days. He quit, then he came back (sort of) and now he's on trial with the board members of our softball association. So heres what happened;
During the allstars tryouts, for softball, he said that this girl (Katelyn I think) was already on the team before hand, just to get her going, but the girl took it seriously and told her parents too, so when she didnt make it in, she was mad. But the strange part- Originally, she made it in, but Morgan, this annoying blonde girl with glassess that threw sand in my eyes butted her(Katelyn) out of the team. I think Morgans mom had something to do with this though, she probably pressured my Coach into getting Morgan into the team and switching Katelyn out. Yesterday, the Coach quit, but came back but the mix-up with Kate still isnt finished. Katelyn still comes to practice, but shes not official, so her parents are mad, and supposedly our practice was cancelled today (although everybody came to practice anyways) and the Coach was put sort of on a trial with the Board members of our softball league.

Im pretty much pooped out. What side will you take, the parents of my coachs?
(comment please I want your opinion!)


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title: Aha!
date: Tuesday, June 3, 2008
time:11:52:00 PM
I have been rediscoverd- dead.
The EOGs are over, and with my shockingly poop score, Im totally doofussed out. I scored 6 points away from perfect score, and I achieved 9 points higher than last year, but you know what? Im still unsatisfied. Still mad...
Im the nerd who wants it all, but too lazy to work for it.
Or am I?

Im going to talk to you soon, Im on my dads computer (and I really shouldnt be) and I've gots lots of important things to write about! ;

notes-
1. all star team
2. mysterious coach quitter COACH IS A QUITTER?
3. AHH.. My fear of ...


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